I watched you walk across the room as my heart wept.
Stay, I whispered.
You let go of the door and paused for what felt like forever.
So I pleaded…
Still you stood there – silent.
I drew closer and hugged your back.
You took my hands in yours and placed them against your chest.
You said nothing.
The only word these lips could utter as my tears wet your back.
Like shattered pieces of glass scattered, my bare feet press against you.
You pierce my skin so deep it cuts my heart – I bleed.
Lodged into my feet you inflict pain with every step – I surrender.
My stride is broken, so to my knees I fall – I crawl.
But even on my knees I still feel you.
How do I get back up?
– Mamello Maitse
Happy endings? Those don’t exist in real life. Somehow we tend to believe when we reach a certain point in our lives we will finally be happy and all will be prefect. Just like in the fairy tales when the princess defeats the evil queen against all odds and lives “happily ever after” with her prince – we think we’ll only be happy when we’ve achieved/overcome certain things. I’ll be happy when I pass grad school, I’ll be happy when I get my dream job, I’ll be happy when I make enough money, I’ll be happy once I get married, I’ll be happy once I have kids, I’ll be happy when I do this and that and the list goes on forever.
Happiness is not a destination…it’s in the journey. The saying should be “happy ever always”. You won’t be happy “after” whatever it is you think you need to do…because the goal post always moves. Once you’ve achieved one thing you’ll move to the next – are you gonna be unhappy in between these destinations? Don’t fall into that trap. The joy is in the journey…The destinations only add to the joy that already exists! Seek out the joy in every moment…it’s always there.
Here’s to happy ever always!