O wretched man 

There are those days
when shadows of
my lesser self
obstruct the light,
and in my groping,
Nephi’s words
reflect my plight:
“O wretched man … I am!”
With him I grieve,
and sorrow
over frailties
that haunt my
conscious mind
and tempt with
I seek to find.

Yet there is One
whose light
will never fail,
whose mercy
makes a way
for my escape.
He opens up the gates.
His love can make me whole!
And with Nephi
I rejoice
and plead,
“O Lord, …
redeem my soul”!

-Phyllis Baker White


I found you in Him

For the longest time all I ever felt was pain…
Everything that hurt, I knew.
All things that tore the soul apart were mine.
My sorrow ran so deep, despair pumped through these veins.
I lost myself without you.

I lost myself without you.

I lost myself without you… until I found you in Him.
And by finding Him I found myself.
I found love.
I found peace.
Peace not as the world gives, but His peace.
My heart is no longer troubled.
Neither is it afraid.

– Mamello Maitse


I watched you walk across the room as my heart wept.
Stay, I whispered.
You let go of the door and paused for what felt like forever.
So I pleaded…
Still you stood there – silent.
I drew closer and hugged your back.
You took my hands in yours and placed them against your chest.
You said nothing.
The only word these lips could utter as my tears wet your back.
I wept…
You left.

-Mamello Maitse

I see me…

I see me…
Until now all I saw was you
All I thought was you
All I felt was you
My life was you

My existence was your shadow
Lingering at your side but never able to reach you
Confined to being with you without having you

I see me…
All of me
Unmarred by your memory
Free from the person who worshipped you

I see ME…
Me without you

– Mamello Maitse