The Giving

I loved you for so long, I didn’t think it was possible to love another…I couldn’t fathom it. But when I did…It was the most beautiful thing – exhilarating and terrifying at the same time. Magical.

But even then I couldn’t help but think of you…I thought of how much it hurt loving you and how exquisite that pain was. I compared it to how effortlessly this new love unfolded with every interaction more blissful than the last.

I kept waiting for it to grow dim, but it didn’t.
I kept waiting for it to end but it didnt.
Love grew.

Love grew not because of what I received but because of what I could give!
Oh! The giving!
The giving of self to the one you love…

It is the beauty of this exchange that faded the scars that were once so deeply imprinted on my heart. I can no longer remember the pain. Now all you are is a reminder of what love shouldn’t be.

– Mamello Maitse

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Intentions

Why go out of your way to be part of my life when your intention is not to stay?
You disrupted my world just to wreck it.

– Mamello Maitse

Friends

Some friendships cannot be measured by the frequency of contact. But rather by the love that is felt even in the absence thereof. The depth in a single “I miss you”, “I think of you often” and “Do you remember when” – is enough to keep it going. These are the friendships that last a lifetime.

– Mamello Maitse

O wretched man 

There are those days
when shadows of
my lesser self
obstruct the light,
and in my groping,
Nephi’s words
reflect my plight:
“O wretched man … I am!”
With him I grieve,
and sorrow
over frailties
that haunt my
conscious mind
and tempt with
hopelessness
relief
I seek to find.

Yet there is One
whose light
will never fail,
whose mercy
makes a way
for my escape.
He opens up the gates.
His love can make me whole!
And with Nephi
I rejoice
and plead,
“O Lord, …
redeem my soul”!

-Phyllis Baker White